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Friday, August 14, 2009

psycho Counsin ansd the Aftermath of Love

I hear my cousin isn't doing to well.  she is the one who caused me to have a nervous breakdown so quite honestly I don’t give a shit.  I’m so bad.  I know I should feel sympathy but she is such a bitch I don't think I could ever feel sorry for her.  I feel like what goes around comes around.  She spread rumors about me that were very untrue and made me an outcast in our church.

I hear she blogs asking people to pray for her.  I told her years also when she 1st went on psych drugs that she needed counseling. She adopted two kids that have emotional problems.  How can she take good care of them when  she has emotional problems herself.  I almost hope she goes through the addiction to pain killers and the pain of being hospitalized for nerves.  I am bad but I can’t help the way I feel.  oh well lol

Thursday, August 6, 2009

changing my system

9544GothFairy The med clinic has decided to take me off of my Klonopin since I have been unable to manage it in this move to my grandmas. They also r taking me off of the gabapentin because I have been accidently overmedicated from my last hospital stay.  So things are sucking a bit.  I’m also having the hormone cries since I’m going through the change.  It fucking sucks.I don't know what I’d do without my support system.  It is going to be VERY hard. BOOYA

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Manic and happy

I feel something coming on strong with me.  for a change I wrote positive poems.  I feel happy, I think I’m finally getting well due to the therapy I’m getting.  Mom also gave me a long talk when I get caught with the weed several months ago.  she used to work at the jail and did a full body pat down and found my stash in my bra.  I was glad she found it.  She told me many things and I got wisdom from her.  I feel like I am really in recovery from my illness.  I feel good.  HUZZAH!!


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